Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Merry Me

I wish I could get married before I reach 30.

I never actually thought about it much til I felt that it would be a great injustice to not have a complete family by that time. That would mean i'd have wasted so much of my life (1/3 to be exact, i doubt i'd go beyond 90years in this mega-polluted planet)

i want to be with people I could cook homemade fudge with and enjoy every sinful minute of it in front of the boob tube.

I want to be with people i can hug anytime i wanted to, as tight as i wanted to, without feeling the least bit hesitant or scared if I'll get hugged back.

I want to worry about someone, be concerned about someone and talk to someone endlessly through life, about a hundred million things, without thinking that what i say isn't really important or intelligent

I want to be with people who will not abuse me verbally nor make me feel like I don't belong in this world because I am not as great as they thought I should be.

I want to be with people who give away free hugs (and sometimes kisses), who will not mind if I ask for soup when I'm sick and not think I'm acting up.

I would just like to feel what it should feel like to be in a family.

I've been asked too many times what I want most in this life and I hesitate to answer because I risk sounding too unambitious, lazy and lethargic.

I just wish I could be part of my own complete family. Imperfect, messy, scary and all that jazz. I want the works. But this time there's gotta be lots and lots of Love.


Janet said...

Hi, mare!

Indeed, it's a very personal post but I don't see any reason to cover it with an article on sushi (of all things). :)

I know a bit about where life has taken you and I understand your longings. They are mine, too. I think they are everybody's, although not everyone is as true as you and how you've expressed it.

Miss you! Rest assured I'll always pray that you may find and build a happy family you can truly call your own.

God bless! *hug*

Anonymous said...

hay.. who doesnt wanna get married?? Certainly I do.. Pero sa mga nangyayari, parang hindi ba nakaka-jaded ng magpakasal??? Hay...

Sa kasal mo imbitado ako ah.. Makapagsuot man lang ako ng gown don lang.. hay....


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